Double Chocolate Cookies

If any of you are anything like me, then you have more than one version of yourself. I’m not talking about a Jekyll and Hyde thing, it’s more of a ‘how I present myself in public’ thing.

You see, there is the ‘normal’ me (aka work-mode me / socialising me): this is where I make an effort. I put on make-up and think about what I am going to wear. I will attempt to do something with my hair that doesn’t involve pulling it hastily into an extremely messy bun (I’m not talking about the deliberately messy bun, which is something altogether different and is done with purpose).

Then there is the ‘off-duty’ me: this is where I apply minimal make-up (just a little concealer where needed so I don’t scare people, should I come across any) and put on comfy, casual clothing. It is a step above not making any effort at all.

At the weekend I usually hover somewhere between ‘normal’ and ‘off-duty’.

Then there is the ‘not leaving the house’ me: do I really need to explain this one? scruffy, comfy jogging bottoms, clothing that has generally seen better days. Hair not washed. Absolutely no make-up. This me is reserved for days when I am not planning on seeing anyone, or in my case, Sundays. I like Sundays spent like this. I always get a bit of a nervous twitch if any one suggests doing something on a Sunday. You want to do what? On Sunday? Really? Okay. As long as I can have Saturday as my Sunday. I need one day a week where I don’t have to make any kind of effort at all. It’s my reward for actually giving a damn the other 6 days of the week.

However – and this is what I really wanted to talk about – have you ever encountered the scenario where someone who usually sees the ‘normal’ you unintentionally sees the ‘off-duty’ you? Then the next time they see you (back in ‘normal’ mode) they make a really big deal about seeing you ‘off-duty’. Typically the person who sees you in this state is someone you would really rather never saw you like that, for exactly the reason stated above. They make a big deal about it and have to make some kind of comment that makes you feel slightly uncomfortable.

Well, that happened to me a few weeks ago and I am still not sure what to make of the whole scenario. I’m not really sure how to take the – what could be classed as a slightly inappropriate – comment. And I’m not sure what bothers me more, the comment that came at the time of seeing the ‘off-duty’ me, or the comment that was made the next day. Both could have been an odd form of compliment, but then again, knowing who they came from, they may not have been.

I realise that I am being a little bit vague. Part of me is tempted to relay the conversation / comments that happened, but then the other part of me thinks maybe I shouldn’t go into such specifics, just in case. Friends I have spoken to about it don’t know what to make of it either, apart from the fact that some of what was said was wrong.

Anyway, what is needed when such things occur, is cookies. Lovely chocolate cookies. So let’s have some, shall we?

The flecks you can see come from the flax meal. Usually you can’t see it, but the batch I have at the moment appears to contain quite a few whole seeds, so they are a little more obvious. However, it doesn’t make them any less yummy.

Or comforting, if you have been creeped out a little.

Dark chocolate chips nestle inside a rich chocolate cookie dough.

Eaten on the day they are baked, the edges are crispy and the middle soft, but I think I prefer these cookies the next day, when they have softened a little more. Then they become perfect for ice-cream sandwiches. Yum.

The recipe does contain my blend of twenty million different flours (sorry), but I have tried making them with a shop bought GF flour and they just don’t work as well. If you want to sub the flours for a shop bought blend, then go ahead but I can’t guarantee what kind of results you will get. On the plus side, if you make GF bread from scratch, then you will have all of the flours I have used anyway (except perhaps sorghum flour, but brown rice flour can be used instead). And the actual making of them is not difficult – mix and scoop, then bake.

Also, depending on what chocolate chips you use, then these cookies are also vegan. I love it when everyone’s a winner.